it's been a long time since i last blogged..
the theme.. 'Millennia Moves"well, last saturday, i went to school for the Institute's Day cum carnival.. saw many of my friends and i did some 'catching up'.. 
well.. raymond received his certificate and in the envelope, there's $50 kinokuniya voucher.. cool huh..
but, if i got that, i think i'd have wasted the voucher.. haha.. well, that's IF.. and it'll never happen, cause i'm not so smart and i wouldn't get anything for any award.. that's the fact, and i've to learn to accept it though it's hard..
anyway, raymond bought me a bouquet of flowers from the carnival, though i hinted him and i bought the coupons, it's still the thought that counts.. haha..
after which, we went to pasir ris chalet to celebrate his friend's and his friend's sister's birthday.. and since his friend has free coupons to escape theme park, we went.. 
here we come..
we had loads of fun.. though we didn't take some of the exciting rides(cause he's scared.. haha..), we still enjoyed ourselves.. 
had buffet at his friend's chalet, cut cake, then we took a stroll to the beach.. surprisingly i met one of my secondary school friend, which happened to be raymond's friend's sister's friend.. confusing? it's okay.. haha.. talked abit before we headed home.. we spent the night at my aunt's place cause we're going to the bird park together..
went to jurong bird park with my uncle, aunt, cousins, and raymond.. it's kind of boring as i can see from the tired look from raymond.. haha.. but, it's interesting for my cousins as they seemed to really enjoy themselves..
on monday, dipti came to my house.. it's been a long time since i met her and we had lots to catch up.. she lost weight!! i'm jealous, gal.. haha..
then on thursday, i went out with my secondary friend, nimrta.. it's been so long since i saw her, in fact, all of my secondary school friends.. we had lots of gossips.. talked about everything under the sun.. hee.. was supposed to hunt for jobs, but we ended up shopping at bugis.. i bought this denim overall, which i've always wanted so badly, for $30.. till now, i still haven't wear it, but, i still love it, and i'm going to wear real soon..
well, every friday, i'm supposed to meet raymond, but from now on, he can only book out on saturday.. haiz.. so, i went carrefour with my grandmother, aunt, and cousin.. it's good to go out with family members huh.. they'll pay for everything that you want to buy.. haha.. but, i don't feel good spending their money, so i didn't buy much either..
yesterday, i went to jo's house.. i didn't know 985 changes its route.. i was quite excited when i knew about it.. haha.. jo and i had a great talk, and the both of us ended up looking for movies for the whole afternoon.. everywhere is fully booked, except for those 'ulu' places.. in the end, she watched with her friends, but i waited for raymond to book out.. haiz.. after i met him, we went bugis to meet my aunts cause one of them wants to buy handphone.. was supposed to go shopping with him at adidas cause he wanted to buy me a bikini, but i said no.. well, even though i want it very much, it's still my natural reaction to say no.. though i regret it, well, it's okay.. shall not waste money.. he came my house to stay cause we were supposed to go sentosa today with his friends..
we did go to sentosa, but, it started raining heavily when we reached there.. so, all of us went to mcdonald's, hoping for the rain to stop, but to no avail.. we ended up at bukit timah, playing pool.. hmmm.. we did have some disagreements.. i don't know why.. everytime we meet, there's surely something that we'll quarrel about.. perhaps my expectations of a boyfriend is not what everyone can meet? i don't know.. but, i keep telling myself, don't expect too much, cause the more i expect, the more i'll be disappointed..
hmmm.. that's what happened to me for the past week.. oh.. one of my cousins got top in class, as well as in the level for her mid-year examinations.. though she's in secondary one, normal academic, her scores for some subjects are really wonderful.. there's no doubt a sense of jealousy in me.. how she can do so well, with so many people praising her, buying her things to reward her.. i can never be like her anymore.. how i've let my family down.. the feeling just sucks.. sucks..
yesterday was a totally horrible day.. well.. things just went 'hay-wired' the day before yesterday..
we met in the afternoon at town.. guess was supposed to celebrate our 11th month anniversary, but things didn't go well.. i just had no mood all of a sudden, and it lasted for the whole day.. before i left my house, i was thinking that maybe he left his house early to get something for me as a surprise, but it didn't come true.. but, i wasn't angry or what, maybe just a feeling in me that i expect too much..
i wanted to go home, not wanting him to send me home.. i left, and when i boarded the bus, he was behind me.. my first reaction was to press the bell, and we alighted.. he was kinda upset, and asked why i alight as well.. actually i thought we could talk things out, but he kept repeating that, so i said sorry then left.. i waited at the bus stop, hoping that maybe he'll come after me or something, but it didn't come true.. waited for about 45minutes, then i went home..
when i reached home, i thought he might wait for me at the void deck or something, but it didn't come true..
was waiting for his message at home, but he didn't.. so, i messaged him, and all he said was, 'think we need a day or two to think about us..' hmmm.. why did it end this way? i've no idea.. i just left my place to go for a stroll, and i don't know what time i reached home..
the next day, i left my house at around 0800, and again, i was hoping maybe he'd be at the void deck, but it didn't come true.. i didn't know where to go, so i went to the mcdonald's at my house, sat there, thinking if i should order anything, but i didn't.. wanted to go to east coast to relax, but i thought maybe i'll meet him later or something, so i didn't.. again, my natural reaction was to go somewhere near him.. in the end, i took 985 to west mall.. ended up at the mcdonaald's, and i sat there till 1500+.. while sitting there, i was near the window, and i was counting the number of ants tcrawling outside the window.. i was thinking if there's no ant or when there's 11, he'll message.. it did come true, but.. he didn't message me or anything.. guess i'm crazy.. i couldn't take it, so i messaged him in the end.. i asked if he still care for me, cause he knew that i was out of house after midnight, but he didn't message me or anything.. what if i met with an accident? well.. i know we quarrelled, but still, shouldn't there be some care and concern? oh well.. things still didn't turn out well..
an idea struck me.. went to west mall and i bought a card for him.. bought a pen, wrote what i wanted to tell him, then i went to his house to put in the letter box.. messaged him to check his mail box, then i left..
headed to my uncle's house at pasir ris to celebrate mothers' day.. ate steamboat.. when i reached, everyone asked why i was alone.. i told them that he went to his grandmother's house.. well, i didn't lie.. that's the truth.. my grandmother was gossipping about me, but i heard.. think she said something like i was lonely without him.. hmmm.. i was really lonely, cause i had nothing to do when he wasn' there..
well, things are better between us now, cause we had a talk, i mean message.. so, i hope it'll last.. right now, i'm at his house, so i hope so.. i love you..
if you really know me, you'd know what i want even without asking.. if you know me, you wouldn't ask me what i want, but instead, buy it without my presence.. if you know me, you'd know that if you ask me, i would definitely say no.. but.. i know you ask me cause you really don't know what to buy.. but, i love whatever that you buy.. guess i don't understand you much as well.. but.. let's just work together to know each other better? i hope so..
went out with my aunt on thursday.. guess what, people.. i got a tattoo!! my long-awaited wish.. hee..
on my inner part of left ankle
then, we went shopping.. went adidas at bugis.. actually i didn't want to spend her money.. but she just took this bag, asked me if it's nice, and when i said the other colour is nicer, she just asked the salesperson to get a new one.. haha.. jealous? i didn't even know how much it cost till i went adidas with raymond today.. it's $79.. gosh.. and you know what? i saw this bag, which only cost $59.. it's the kind of bag i've always wanted.. those you carry by the side.. haiz.. but it's okay.. i still love it..
there's also this new bikini at adidas.. brazil and france.. it's time i get a new set, but.. no job, no money.. haiz..
last but not least.. to those who are concerned about me.. i got back my results for my 2nd module(diploma).. i can't believe it.. i got a 'B'!! scored 72marks.. hee.. i'm proud of myself.. didn't know i'll score this high cause i thought i'll flunk it.. yay!!
i'm at ain's house now.. just went shopping at centrepoint before heading down to taka..
bought a pull-up bar for raymond.. hope it can fit the doorway for him to practice, for his BAC selections.. good luck to you, dear.. and hope you'll like it.. take it as a gift, from me to you, for our 11th month anniversary.. i love you..
anyway.. we were at centrepoint, and ain was craving for fish a& co.. she's rich.. what to do.. haha.. she treated me.. but i only ate fries and had a glass of iced tea.. you know what peepz.. she was telling the orders to the waitress.. 'can we have a seafood platter for one, a glass of iced tea, a can of ginger ale, and also a side order of fries..' so, when the order came, it was a seafood platter, and a side order of rice.. fries became rice.. haha.. so we changed the order.. it was so much, and we were so full after that.. guess we don't need to eat dinner..
headed down to taka and it was raining.. bought wrapping paper for the pull-up bar, and i paid extra $2 for wrapping service.. and the thing is, when we boarded the bus, i was thinking if the lady took out the price tag.. i opened up the present, and true enough, she didn't.. not very good service afterall.. haha..
going to meet raymond later.. few more days for him before he leave his 'heaven'-nee soon camp, and go back to 'hell'-pasir ris camp.. haha.. good luck to you..
getting ready to go east coast 
my 'aprillia' & his 'vespa'nothing much happened last week.. went to east coast yesterday with raymond.. cycled for awhile before heading to PS.. haven't been cycling for ages and i was really tired after awhile.. gosh.. so weak..
ain.. don't be angry after reading this.. lucky i went yesterday.. cause i need to train first before giving you a lift.. haha.. i hope i became taller after that time cause i don't wish to have difficulties handling the bike.. haha..
today, i watched MI-3 at marina.. it was a great movie.. you guys should watch it too.. been going to the arcade.. but everytime i play something with raymond, he'll always win me.. so irritating.. guess i must go everyday to brush up my skills.. haha.. as if my family print money.. oh well..
take a free ride from marina to CK Tangit's sunday again.. time flies.. raymond has to book in again.. so fast.. hmmm.. it's only been 4months he'd served NS.. still a long way to go.. just hope time will will pass faster so that he doesn't need to book in..
i need a job badly!!!