Thursday, September 28, 2006 @04:12
it's 0303 right now.. i've to blog so late cause of my uncle.. helped him to download some songs to the computer then wanted to burn to the disc, but things happen.. don't know why it got hanged and i've to restart the computer.. waste my time only.. in the end, i can't burn to the disc.. i'll try again the next time when i come..it's been a really long time since i blogged.. yes, i'm still alive, kicking.. for those who are really concerned, you'd have known what happened, and for those who don't, it's okay.. cause at least you're showing some concern now that you're reading my blog.. i was suffering from food poisoning on the 16th of september, if i'm not wrong.. vomited, had diarrhoea(or hoever it's spelt), and i didn't eat for 2days.. after which, i survived only by eating porridge fo almost a week.. by right, i should've lost lots of weight, but by left, i didn't.. instead, i think i put on lots of weight.. i don't know why.. raymond took care of me on that day for the whole day.. he came to my place immediately after going home to put his stuff cause he just booked out, at about 0900.. accompanied me to the doctor, fed me with medicine and glucose(which i depended on for the 2days which i didn't eat), applied medicated oil for me, and he did everything he could just to make me feel better.. for that, i was really touched.. thanks, dear.. he wanted to stay for the night to look after me, but i told him it's okay.. cause the next day, he's leaving for brunei for 3weeks, and he has yet to pack his bag, and also yet to meet his friends.. well, i'm considerate, i can't help it.. haha..the next day, i felt so much better.. so, i decided to go out and meet him.. if not, i wouldn't be able to do so for the next 3weeks.. i'm glad i did, cause i really did enjoy myself, even though we didn't go to many places.. met him at lot 1, where the first thing he tempted me with was mcdonald's breakfast.. he was there with his friends, then when i reached, he said, 'today, the mcdonald's breakfast not nice leh..' haha.. we walked around for awhile, then his friend sent us back to his place.. we watched 'snakes on the plane', packed his bag, and went to mustafa centre with his parents.. after which, we went for dinner(and obviously i didn't eat.. haha..), then went to his grandmother's place at hougang.. watched soccer there, we had a bet, and i lost a tub of ben and jerry's ice cream to him.. haiz.. the time was 2200+ and he has to leave for the airport.. haiz.. i can't send him to the airport, and i'm glad i didn't(even though i'd love to) cause i know i'll cry if i did.. 9more days and he'll be back.. i can't wait to see him!!well, it's true that many things happened during the first week when he's not around.. i'd wanted him so badly to be with me, to think things with me and to give me some advice.. i was really sad cause i needed to handle them alone.. it seems that they ain't such a big deal now, but i was really affected at that time.. it's okay, i'm glad that things are getting better now.. 2days after i got food poisoning, my mum had it as well.. she was even hospitalised for a day, but luckily there's no big problem.. at that time when she was in bed, i'd wanted so much to be by her bedside, to talk to her, to comfort her, to do everything which a daughter ought to do.. i went to visit her, but i didn't do anything.. i don't know why.. i just can't bring myself to do it.. i'm such a failure.. i've always wanted so much to tell her that i love her, but not to mention that, i can't even hold a proper conversation with her.. i'm such a failure.. forget it.. the more i think about things, everything will start to come back again.. i'll just forget it.. to asliana, so sorry that i didn't know you were hospitalised, and i didn't go and visit you or anything.. i'm glad that you're fine now.. nice catching up with you, and i know you still have lots of things which you've yet to tell me.. i'm always willing to listen to you, okay? i'll be here for you.. and, i saw your friendster picture.. don't try to snatch adidas away from me, okay? it'll always stay loyal to me.. haha.. also, stop making me jealous by using raymond.. =)to ain, hope you really like the birthday present i bought for you(though the brown is nicer now.. lol..).. it was nice watching soccer with you at chijmes, and it was expected of you to scream when liverpool scored.. haha.. your school will be starting soon.. hope you'll enjoy there and study hard..to joanne, it's been a really long time since we had so much fun talking on the phone, and i didn't regret calling you on that day.. i know that now you're busy studying for your 'A' levels, so you wouldn't have time to go out.. make sure you date me after your last paper, okay? it's just 1month left, so don't give up now at this time and do your best.. i've confidence in you..to wyd, i know you've been busy in your studies, so no worries that you can't meet me.. just let me know when you're free and we'll meet up often, okay? to dipti, it's been a long time since i heard from you.. how have you been? too busy with your studies? i hope not.. don't stress yourself, okay? you're smart.. ask me out when you're having holidays, ya? to vengky, don't give yourself too much pressure.. sometimes, you get so stressed that you can't think properly.. loosen yourself and enjoy life once in awhile, even if it's during school days.. hee..to nimrta, i don't know when i'll be free to go out, but i really want to meet you.. it's been a really long time since we met up.. you didn't tell me that you're having holidays.. *sob* *sob* i don't care.. you got to make it up to me the next time we go out.. your treat.. haha..to khin, if you're reading this, just know that whatever happens, i'll always be by your side.. even though we're far apart, our hearts connect us together.. let me know whenever you need my help, okay? to raymond, at this time, you should be getting up soon, and going to get ready for outfield.. you'll be out there for almost a week.. take good care of yourself, okay? in less than 10days' time, i'm going to see you at the changi airport!!to myself, the time is already 0358.. if you still don't sleep, you'll see a big panda tomorrow.. haha.. lastly, the module's finishing soon and exams are coming.. make sure you study hard and get goon grades.. after which, 1more module and you'll get a diploma!! you can do it, amanda!! =)